I’m starting to think this PhD tumblr is a major fail since I haven’t written here forever. But it’s also evidence of how much time this PhD is taking from any extracurricular activities.

The semester is mercifully over. My HR course was super fun as it made me think in a totally different way. But it’s also the course I am praying that my professor has mercy on me, loves my final paper so much and has enough heart to give me a B. I’m fairly certain I earned a B, but he’s a tough grader. My other class, research design, is a toss up between an A and a B. I had to put more time into my HR final paper than my research design final paper, so if I get a B, I totally understand.

It’s really weird. I feel like I’m finally finding a bit of a groove with this program and I have this overwhelming fear that I’m still not proving myself enough to make it through to the end. But I think that’s how most PhD students feel. Add on top of that the fact that I’m a part-time student and well, I may never feel like I belong until the very end. Heck, I might be 80 years old and fearing someone will take it all back.

Next semester is part two of research design and my first science policy course. That last one I am going to put so much energy into. I have to prove myself to that professor in a mega-uber-way.

Well, back to recovering from the semester by writing holiday cards.